I came to the mahoosive decision yesterday that I would defer the Gloucester marathon to next year. When I booked it a whole year year ago, I thought that would be ample training time to achieve this huge goal… and now with it only 3 months away it really is impossible, I have to accept the realities and limitations as a runner at the moment. I very much believe in respecting the miles and I can’t do a half-hearted pitiful attempt, its just not me. At best I am half marathon ready rather than full marathon. That’s the real deal.
This decision has greatly upset me, when I told my runner friends yesterday I had tears in my eyes and felt pretty rubbish about it, its the sensible choice, for me, its just not right, at this time. I know its right as much as I hate the decision. May be its the Leo in me, or may be my old Nan who was a determined bugger too, admitting I can’t do something is nothing other than a massive blow in the guts.
What I will concentrate on are my half marathons and actually achieve the full distance completely running them. I am also going to go for the New York marathon ballot for next year – so we will see! If that’s my first marathon then that will be really well worth waiting for.
On another more positive note, I now have a YouTube channel! Some of my runner friends have uploaded their running video histories, please go check it out and let me know what you think? I aim to film a few of my runs here in the Cotswolds to share. I love editing movies so hopefully you will enjoy them.
Hope everyone’s running is going well and speak to you soon, BB xx